My brain does this thing I refer to as “spinning” because that is exactly what it feels like. It does this constantly but it is most annoying at night if I wake up in the middle of the night and the insomnia begins which is what happened the other night. So, I thought I would share what it is like in my mind on one of these occasions.
I’m cold, but I don’t want to get up to get the extra blanket on the chair. Hmmm…maybe if I wiggle further under the covers it will be warmer.
Not working. Still cold. I wish I would have just gotten up to get the blanket.
Hubby is always warm. I’ll scoot over there and snuggle. (hubby is sweet and puts his arm around me – he probably assumes I’m cold since I always am).
Warm now. My jammie pants are twisted. I wonder if I can get them straightened out without bothering hubby. my arm is starting to fall asleep. My face itches. Hubby’s breathing sounds so peaceful. I wish I could be asleep right now. I wonder what time it is. Darn I can’t see the clock from here. Maybe if I breathe like hubby I will fall asleep. My arm is really falling asleep.
(I start trying to match his breathing) That was a nice deep breath. very relaxing. This is gonna work. Wait. Did he already exhale? How long can he hold his breath? Is he still alive? (He exhales) Ok. this is good. Another deep breath. Ok. I can wait until he exhales this time. I wonder if I can use my ipod in my new car? I wonder if I would get tired of my songs. No. I really like those songs and there are a lot of them on there.
(About this time one of my dogs moves over and curls up next to me) Oh that helps me warm up. My arm is really asleep. How can I fall asleep with my arm asleep? But I can’t move now because I am wedged between my dog and my hubby.
I wonder what time it is. I wish I could see the clock. What should I wear to church in the morning? Do I want to wear my new boots or maybe just casual and warm with a sweatshirt and athletic shoes? Should I wear my hair up or down?
I need to do laundry in the morning. I wonder if I should just get up now and get it started. Darn, now I have to go to the bathroom. Maybe I can fall asleep and not think about it. I really need to go. It is really uncomfortable. I wish I was asleep right now. I wonder what time it is. Oh wait, I was supposed to be breathing with my hubby so it would put me to sleep. Ok big deep breath….my arm is really asleep. My jammie bottoms are still twisted. I wish I could fix them without disrupting my hubby. Oh wait. Big Exhale.
The boy goes back to school Monday. Hmmm….I wonder what time I need to get up to get him out the door for his new schedule. I don’t want to walk the dog in the morning because it is just too cold, but she is so cute, I have to. We will just go fast. oops. big deep breath. Why isn’t this working. He is sleeping so soundly. Darn, I’m gonna have to get up and go to the bathroom….
This is just a few minutes of what happens in my brain in the middle of the night, but you get the idea.
What happens in your brain when you wake up in the middle of the night?
How do you overcome your insomnia?